Today

It is Sunday and Harper is not sleeping today, had the largest throwup I have ever witnessed and I thought she was going to die. She doesn't want to nap today and Abi just woke up, so needless to say I am exhausted. Thanks to Chris who can take over for a little bit. This pregnancy weight is just not coming off and I think I have insomnia again.

She has been sleeping for 2 1/2 hours

And it only took me all day to get her to take this nap but the only problem is that it started at 6pm... Oh well, it is good for me to be reminded that she will always need her sleep and no matter what she will get it at some point, eventually. And I will get some moments of being in between all this noise.

Sunday night

Got a MacBook and am loving the differences between this and my Dell, which seems tiny in comparison. Its 9pm and I am waiting for Harper to wake up so I can feed her before I go to bed. Sometimes I feel as though my life is just waiting for something to happen so I can take care of it, usually something with either Harper or Abi, and often it is related to waking/sleeping, hunger or bowel movements. I'd like to someday soon not be waiting or not be on call and to be able to sit and read a book without having to be needed by anybody anytime soon. Although if I had that life I would probably want to be needed in the way I am now, well, maybe not. Needed is good, but needed all the time, not so great, no time to take care of yourself. Helps a ton to have someone like Chris who does everything he possibly can to give me some time for myself. Love him tons.