Saturday morning at 6am

Should I really be playing Little People at 6am? What I should be doing and what I want to be doing are two separate things and right now what I should be doing is catering to the needs of my girls, and if that means nursing Harper for an hour at 5am and then playing with plastic figurines and their dollhouse at 6am then that is my life right now and I should drink my coffee because that I know for sure is for me and not for anybody else and it feels good on the way down and it nurtures. This is me and Abi in her playroom sitting and playing and thinking about writing and Harper and Chris sleeping is a good thing and I think it is daylight savings today so oh my god does that mean that it is really 6am again instead of 7am? and omg does Abi know that and wait a minute what right does time have to play these games with me when all I do sometimes is try and figure it out, its unrelenting power.